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T the of about fourteen age

years, Mrs. B- - became very feriously impreffed. For feveral weeks her diftrefs of mind

was great. She viewed herself as one of the greatest of finners. At times fhe was the fubject of the most violent temptations of the adverfary, which nearly proved her ruin for time and eternity. But when her diftress was at the greateft, and all hope from herfelf was cut off, God was pleafed to let a ray of light into her mind. She could fee the glory of God in every thing around, and was led to praise him, though she had no thought at that time that what fhe experienced was faving. All things appeared new; and efpecially fhe discovered a new beauty and glory in the gofpel, and in the character of God as revealed in the Bible.

From this time fhe continued a ferious, exemplary Chriftian till the age of feventeen years, when the publicly profeffed religion. How deeply the was affected with a profpect of this folemn tranfaction, may be feen from the following extract of a letter fhe wrote to a friend." Laft Friday evening, while I was alone, I had a defire to lift up my tho'ts

to fomething far higher than this world. Immediately my • defires increased, and I felt a willingness to leave all and follow Chrift. I have ever fince feen as it were a fountain opened, and God willing to forgive finners. And if I know my heart, I have given up myself to be devoted to God, which is 'perfect liberty, and to leave the fervice of Satan, which is perfect flavery. O Sally, I would beg your fincere prayers for me that I may hold out to the end--I feel it impreffed upon me as a duty to come now and own Chrift before the world, and 'fhall endeavor to do it. is our duty to let finners know that we can take comfort in fomething higher than this world."


It was a fingular evidence of her fincerity to fee her coming forward publicly in religion in her youthful age, while her companions were purfuing a different course.

After her attendance on the communion fervice, fhe writes as follows: "This day has been a feaft to many fouls in this place. We have had the Lord's fupper administered to us in a very ftriking manner. It seemed to 'me that the Lord was with us of a truth.-Laft night I felt my fins fo heavy that I was almost ready to think I fhould not dare to go to the holy ordinance; but the more I thought of my fins, the more I felt my need of going, humble and penitent, and confeffing them to a merciful God. And I hope I have got a fealed pardon."

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For feveral of the last years of life, fhe was the fubject of many remarkable, afflicting difpenfations of providence. Her conftitution was delicate, and in her fhort life, fhe experienced fev

enal diftreffing fits of ficknefs. | But "fhe found it good for her to be afflicted." It was truly inftructive to notice her calmnefs and sweet refignation, in seasons of inexpreffible bodily diftrefs. The diftreffes of her body appeared like the refiner's fire" to purge away the drofs, and fit her foul for a more intimate enjoyment of God. Every turn of frckness seemed to raise her higher in the exercises of grace.


Her piety fhone bright in her conduct towards her family. was faithful to her dear companion, whom the viewed to be in an unfanctified ftate, to warn him of the importance of a religious life. | She had been bleffed with three little daughters, whofe minds the cultivated with great care as far as they were capable of inftruction. Such was her fituation as to bodily health, that the expect ed to leave them in the wide world without a mother to guard their tender years. This thought excited her to great diligence in every duty which refpected the good of their fouls.

glories of the invisible world, that he ever after seemed in hafte to depart. She thought, in her sleep, that fhe was in the immediate prefence of her God and Saviour, in company with numberless glorified faints, particularly the old patriarchs, prophets, and apoftles; and that the loved them much better than fhe ever had any of her earthly friends. Her affections after this formed in a great measure to quit their hold on fublunary things. "As my love to

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God," faid fhe, "increases in 'my foul I am lefs anxious for 'my earthly friends. I have for'merly been unwilling to leave my children, for fear they might fail of a religious education; but now I can leave them with God, who can do much better for them than I can. I can with 'the greatest safety commit all my friends to God and caft my. felf and all my concerns on him.” Being afked how God appeared to her? fhe faid, he appeared to be an infinitely great and glorious being, infinite in goodness, and that the felt furrounded with his She lived in the habitual ex- presence and adorable majesty. pectation of her own death, and Being asked whether the felt her wrote a few lines of advice for her fins pardoned? She replied, " yefchildren, to be given to them after terday I had to come to him as her deceafe. A few weeks be-a fin-hating and fin-forgiving fore her death, fhe prepared her funeral drefs, though she was then in a state of perfect health.

Her laft fickness was fhort and inexpreffibly fevere. It continued about fourteen days. Amidft great pain of body fhe evidenced to all around her, how precious religion is in death.

Through her whole ficknefs fhe feemed to be carried far above the things of time, and to be imprefsed with the idea that fhe fhould not recover. About a week before her death, in a dream, fhe had fuch a fenfible view of the


To a youth in the full vigor of health whom she viewed to be out of Chrift, fhe faid, "I would 'not exchange conditions with you for any thing. Oh, don't give yourself any reft day nor night."

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She often expreffed longing defires to depart, faying, fhe did not think her weak frame could have held out fo long. She would fometimes enquire, "How much longer do you think I can endure?" On a perfon's obferving to her that the feemed almoft

gone, fhe faid, "I thought you
told me fo two days ago." She
would then fear being impatient
She could
to wait God's time.
not bear to have any of her friends
unwilling to part with her. Ob-
ferving one of her fifters over-
come with grief, fhe faid, "Is
not he a juft God? What is
this world that you with me to
live in it ?" Her fifter replied,
"This world is nothing to me,
and I feel as though, I had ra-
ther die than live here without
'you," This brought a tear into
her eyes, and the replied, "It
⚫ will be but a little time that you
have to stay behind." Being
requested by her fifter to leave
fome word for her to think upon
and remember her by, fhe faid,
"Give up this world entirely, and
every thing in it, and feek the
Lord and he will certainly be
⚫ found of you. I can fay no more
'to you than you have in the bi-

It is full of confolations." At times the expreffed great anxiety for those who were out of Chrift. "I want to fay much to them, but I have not 'ftrength. I feel a tender pity for them.-But they have Mofes and the prophets."

To those who stood round her bed, she said, "I am here a spectacle for you to look at, and fee to what you are coming-I am preferved by God's power for a warning to you, that God 'may be glorified."

After all hopes of her recovery were paft, fhe was afked, if it would furprise her to hear that we thought her near her end? She replied, "Not at all." Then with calmnefs fhe prepared to take leave of her relatives ;-converfed fome time with her husband alone; -examined into the ftate of his mind, and exhorted him above all'

things to make religion the chief business of life ;-defired him not to mourn for her but for fin; and called in the family one by one, and gave them her dying counfel.

Being vifited by her minifter, the defired prayers, and when afked what he should pray for, "That God may be gloreplied, 'rified in all things." At another time fhe faid, "My work is 'all done, and I have nothing to • do but to breathe out my foul into the hands of him who gave it.”

The evening but one before her death fhe feemed perfectly ferene and happy.. Her mind was fo entirely carried into the world of glory, and her expectations of being foon freed from fin and for row, were fo high, that it fettled her countenance into a sweet fmile of complacency. A hymn was read to her, entitled, " The

fong of heaven defired by faints ' on earth." She closed her eyes and appeared as in a sweet extacy of delight while attending.

After this happy evening the. endured diftrefs of body, which She was cannot be described. patient and fubmiffive under all her diftreffes, till fhe clofed the scene of mortal life. Yet imagination follows the departed foul into the world of fpirits. And this calls to mind fome more of her "If," faid fhe, cheering words.

I had only stepped on the other fide of death, it seems to me nothing on earth could induce me 'to return."

"Hark the bids her friends adieu,

Some angel calls her to the fpheres,
Our eyes the radient form pursue,
Through liquid telescopes of tears.
Farewell, bright foul, a fhort farewell,
Till we fhall meet again above,
In the fweet groves where pleasures


And trees of life bear fruits of love."

At a Meeting of the Truflees of the Miffionary Society of Connecticut, at Hartford, May 11, 1803. VOTED, That the Editors of the Connecticut Evangelical Magagine be requested to publish in their next number a letter addreffed to the Board from a female friend of miffions, inclofing a donation of Five Dollars to the Society, together with a copy of this vote; as a teftimony of the Board's approbation of the letter,

and their thanks to the unknown writer. Atteft,

ABEL FLINT, Secretary.

To the Trufices of the Miffionary Society of Connecticut.



TRUST there are none who love our Lord Jefus Christ in fincerity who do not applaud your apparent zeal and industry, in the cause of our divine Mafter. They alfo blefs God that he doth, from time to time, raise up inftruments for the advancement of the Redeemer's kingdom in the world. And as you have freely offered your fervice in this glorious caufe, it furely becometh others, according to their several ability, to follow the example. The earth is the Lord's and the fulness thereof; but, bleffed be God, he is pleafed to accept whatever his creatures have to beftow, (provided it be done with a right difpofition of heart) as a facrifice acceptable to himself. Accordingly I fend you inclosed in this a five dollar bill, which pleafe to appropriate to the Miffionary bufinefs. It is the price of industry. My health has been for a confiderable time bad, at least by turns, which led me exceeding. ly to prize the bleffing when I enjoyed it, and made me to inquire, what fhall I render to the

Lord for all his benefits? Ac cordingly I refolved to set apart fix pence of my earnings each week, in which I was able to perform my tafk, to charitable purpofes, and I have this little fum remaining; and I can affure my young female companions that I feel a pleafure in doing thus, which twice the fum could not procure for me if employed in adorning my body. May the Lord watchmen upon the walls of Jeblefs you and make you able rufalem, fill your fouls with holy joy, and when you have finished your pilgrimage on earth, receive you, for Chrift's fake, to mansions of eternal reft!—


Religious Intelligence.

Prefent fate of Conneticut Miffions.

THE Rer. Jofeph Badger, ftill continues to labor as a Miffionary in New Connecticut; from which place the Rev. Ezekiel J. Chapman, lately returned. Mr. Chapman's place will foon be supplied by another miffionary; and it is propofed by the Trustees of the Miffionary Society of Connecticut, to employ three miffionries in that country the enfuing year.

The Rev. Meffrs. Willifton and Woodward, are laboring in the western counties of New-York, and northern counties of Pennfylvania; and it is directed that a mffionary be fent for four months to the counties of Otfego and Deleware.

Mr. for the miniftry, is appointed to a Hovey, a candidate miffion of four months to the fettlements on Black River; and the

Rev. Aaron Kinne, to the fettle-ed to a miffion of fixteen weeks, ments on the Ofwegotchee, for fix months.

The Rev. Meffrs. Bushnell and Leonard, are itinerating as miffionaries, one half of the time, in the northern part of Vermont. The Rey. Job Swift, is appoint

to the fettlements weft of Lake Champlain, and the north weftern part of Vermont.

The Rev. John Willard, jun. is appointed to a miffion of fixteen weeks in the north eastern part of Vermont.

Further account of the fales, &c. of the first volume of the Connec ticut Evangelical Magazine.

Number on hand, as per laft ftatement, January 1802-258, all of which have been fold.

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Account of the fales, Sc. of the fecond volume, to May 10th, 1803.

Whole number printed 4000 for each month,




Given gratis to fubfcribers, who became refpon

fible for 12 fets or more,


On hand, May 10th, 1803,

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Amount of fales.

Dolls. Cts.

33178 to fubfcribers, at 12 cents,

4147 25

5542 at retail, at 12 cents,

692 75


66 mills each,

Contingent expenfes, poftage, &c.

2755 to bookfellers, at 8 pence,

Expenfes.-Printing 48000 Magazines, at

306 11

Whole amount of fales,

5146 11


35 53

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1942 58


701 33

401 25

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